As I walked through the now barren herb garden at Cornell Plantations last week, the statue of the Yarb Woman seemed perfect for how I feel at the winter solstice.
The Yarb Woman looks over her sleeping garden cleared of all the remnants of cone flower, aster and thyme. Her patina of red and blue seems the only color remaining.
The daylight is brief and the night long. Most days are damp and chilly. Our personal energy seems at a low point.
So, what is this winter solstice revealing to us at what feels like a low point? We know the sun will return and start a renewal of life. It seems a time to be optimistic in the face of long nights, to remember how we complain about the hottest days and to recall how the heat can sap our energy.
Beyond the cold, the darkness and the lifeless fields, we know that life is still good. It is really extraordinary. The buds lie asleep on the beech and the azalea alike, and their time will come to our delight. Be patient.
One morning, I took a walk around a nearby pond. The teasels remained for the gold finches to pick apart for seed. To match the feeling, I reduced the color to just a hint, for the sun only added a hint of warmth to the day. That matches how the gold finches' color is also reduced to only a suggestion of their bright yellow breeding colors.
During my walk, the sun made an effort to warm the day, and some color did erupt for my camera's pleasure. Note the lone green pine tree reflected in the pond beyond the ice. It is our knowing perseverance. How welcome is that little bit of green.
I realize that I long for the first real snowfall this year to replace the ground's dull browns and to gracefully dress the brown weed stalks. The last two days' rain would have been more uplifting as snow. I grew up in the south were snow was the exception, and I did not get to really appreciate its gift to raising the spirits until I came to the New York's Finger Lakes.
So, today, as I walked my neighborhood, the stark outline of barren oak trees made me pull out my iPhone and record how I felt on a rainy December day when there should have been snow.
I guess I am in a winter solstice sort of funk, and need some snow to brighten up the landscapes and give me reason to pull out the snowshoes for a brisk hike. Or, maybe I need to dance around a bonfire?